is Debbie, and I would like to tell you about the day that
changed my life forever. It was a Friday, July 19, 2002, the
day I died.
it's been well over one year, it's as though it happened just
yesterday. I remember every detail vividly. What I experienced
on that day in July is now part of me. It is something I will
carry with me always.
started off just like any other. I got up at 6:30 a.m. and
got ready to go to work. At 7:00 a.m. I got my daughter up
and ready for a fine arts camp she attended. I only worked
half a day because my daughter was performing in a musical.
After her musical, we all went out to eat, and then my husband,
daughter and I went home. It was at home, that night, that
something happened to me. I was told by my husband after a
blackout period that I had gone into respiratory arrest twice
within a 20-minute time frame.
died and crossed over, I was completely unaware of it, and
had no memory of my life or family on Earth. I was surrounded
by a majestic light, and felt its excellence and solace. I
was surrounded by hundreds of people, and we were all standing
in lines. While I refer to them as "people," as that is what
I perceived them to be and considered this one female and
that one male as in the physical sense of those designations,
they did not seem to have physical bodies, but rather more
like an undefined presence that was just…there.
I once felt from the Light immediately turned to that of wrath.
I felt God's wrath! You see, the Light is God. I then realized
that I was standing before God in Judgment. I was standing
in one of many lines, and these lines were moving, yet I was
not walking. All of a sudden, the line I was in stopped. I
was standing before the throne of judgment. As I knelt before
God, I felt his fury. It was at that point I knew I was damned.
As I lifted my head and looked over, I saw myself at five
years old and my sister when she was six. We were bigger than
life. I held my head in shame as I saw myself being evil to
my sister. At that point, I felt humiliated beyond belief.
I couldn't handle the pain, and begged for it to stop. The
pain I felt stopped, but immediately started again with more
fury. You see, I was no longer feeling my pain and humiliation;
it was all turned around to where I felt my sister's pain.
I had a taste of hell. I was begging for the pain to stop,
but it wouldn't. Her pain that I felt was so profound, I would
have given anything for it to stop!
the pain stopped and the line started moving again, but I
knew I wasn't going to Heaven. In fact, I had been given a
preview of what was in store for me and that was Hell! I was
crying, and full of terror. I was going to hell, something
I feared my whole life. Then all of a sudden my line stopped
again. I understood by the Light that I would be going "back"
(at the time I didn't know where "back" was), but I would
not be going alone. I further understood that I would be carrying
my sister's pain with me until my death on Earth. I understood
that not only would I feel her pain every day, but that it
would serve as a constant reminder of how what I say to a
person can really hurt them. I assure you, I feel her pain
each and every day.
me months to tell my husband about my experience. In fact,
to this day it is still hard for me to talk about it. But
I assure you it has changed my life for the better! For the
first time in my life I have felt amazing. I was able to let
go of my past, and now feel no pain. I want to tell the world
about my experience, and how it has changed me! I am finally
free, free to love and free to be me!!
Deborah A. Talor