I began to meditate to find answers as to what I should do with the rich personal gifts my husband had left with me. Through my 33 year relationship with him, I'd become an individual who was softer, more understanding, less impatient and better able to work successfully with others to achieve goals.

When he died suddenly, I was left alone and without an anchor. I knew that I had something to contribute to others, but we had always done these things together. How should I begin? What should I do? and Where?

Long ago, we had become interested in Edgar Cayce and Jose Silva; we had successfully graduated from three courses in the Silva method. Thus, I was familiar with employing the mind to fulfill desires. I'd heard about meditation, but didn't want to get involved with yoga or other Eastern exercises. I only wanted to find answers to the questions I had.

In this past month I began to attempt meditation every day between two forty-five and three p.m. I'm not certain that I've actually achieved the state of deep consciousness. However, on one occasion I was given the view of water falling from high above and the image of Jesus hanging, as though on the cross. I was not raised in any religious belief system, but I felt the tears flowing as I was reminded that he had died for me and loved me fully and that I was not alone.

On another occasion, I received information that I would move to Virginia Beach with my partner and we would build a retreat for homeless families; the money for this would be provided. Since I have no new friends, live in a place where it is unlikely that I shall meet another mate, and am living on a fixed income, I have no way of knowing whether this experience was wishful thinking, or something more. But, I was reminded to BELIEVE.

Marilyn
Tucson, AZ 9/30/07
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