two daughters, twenty-two and thirty-one years old. When my
eldest daughter was eight, an only child, I made up my mind
that I didn't want anymore children and decided to have a
tubal ligation. I had been on birth control for eight years.
I went to my doctor to make plans for this surgical procedure.
During the examination, he found ovarian cysts. The doctor
instructed me to go home, pack a bag, and check right into
the hospital. The surgery was performed and everything went
weeks after the operation, I was lying in bed one night when
I saw a brilliant flash of light in my bedroom. I thought
a car had turned around in my driveway. But when my husband
walked into the room, he told me that I was glowing, that
my face was radiant with light. I just laughed at him. A week
later I found out that I was pregnant.
devastated. I was so angry with God that I stopped going to
church. Then one night I had a dream. In the dream, I was
in the bathroom thinking that I couldn't be pregnant, when
all of a sudden a very tall man appeared. He said that God
had sent him to tell me that everything was going to be okay.
He told me that he was my guardian angel and that his name
was Jerry. He reminded me of a great Zulu warrior.
was gifted from the start. She has a voice from God, even
though no one else in our family can sing. I love to listen
to music and I play the radio all day. One day, when my daughter
was about four years old, I noticed that she was singing the
words to the songs that she liked. It was so beautiful that
I just cried and cried.
going to church again and I enrolled her in kindergarten,
at four years of age! They told me one day that I should enroll
her in a special school of the arts that was being offered
at that time. I took her to the audition and she was chosen
by all four of the teachers who interviewed her. During class
sessions, they taught her various old spiritual songs. The
pastor of our church would coax her to sing "Swing Low, Sweet
Chariot" during the praise services. The spirit of the Lord
would come into the room and everyone, I mean everyone, would
be dancing or crying.
proof to me that God knows what's best for us even when we
don't know it ourselves.