I was about five years old, my family lived in a very
small house which unfortunately had more than a few
bugs crawling around in it. Sometimes my parents would
spray the house with insecticide, but when they did
I would become extremely frightened. I would run around
screaming that they were trying to kill me. Eventually,
they would wait until after I had gone to bed and then
would spray at night.
believe that this fear was caused by the recall of a
concentration camp in which I was gassed to death in
a past life.
in high school, I had a fascination with anything that
had to do with Germany. I would even buy German language
courses since German was not offered at my high school.
Then, when I was in my 30's, I had a vivid dream which
helped explain many things - my fear of being gassed
to death, my fear of insecticides, and my fascination
this dream, I am a young man about 34 years old and
I reside in an old apartment building somewhere in Germany.
The apartment has several flights of wooden stairs and
I live at the top in a small apartment with bare floors.
There is no elevator. I have a little daughter who is
about seven years old.
the dream there is only one scene. My daughter and I
are wearing coats and she has a very large black tam
on her head which is tilted to one side. I see her white
socks folded down and her brown tie shoes. There are
soldiers on the way up the stairs and I know they are
going to take us away. I pick her up and hold her in
my arms and I am feeling a very intense love and caring
emotion from the very depths of my being that I cannot
describe. In fact, I have only felt that powerful emotion
in that one dream.
am not gassed in the dream but somehow I know that that
was the outcome of our having been taken by the soldiers.
At the end of the dream a voice came to me and said,
"Just to let you know that this is true, remember
the word, 'Hadassah'." The word Hadassah was spelled
out in my dream so that I would not forget it.
my current boyfriend happens to be of Swiss-German descent,
speaks German, and says that he is certain that we have
been together in a past life. In fact, we are both certain
of that. I now realize that something could happen to
me in one life and continue to affect me in another.
Posted Oct. 21, 2007