am an American, born & bred (a Texan). All of my
older cousins fought in WWII against the Nazis. I was
born in 1944. Ever since I was a small boy, whenever
I saw a movie with WWII fighter planes in it, I had
the feeling that I was flying and fighting in a German
Messerschmitt 109. When I saw "movie" Nazis,
I could recognize when any of the actors' costumes weren't
"correct" or if their medals were not in the
about ten years ago, I got the chance to travel through
Europe, I visited some pen-pals in Munich, Germany.
From the first moment I met them, I could speak and
understand German. All of the people I met over there
told me that I spoke Bavarian German. As my friends
were showing me around the city, I pointed out a large
building and mentioned that it was the old Gestapo headquarters.
They were amazed that I could know that. I pointed to
a blank spot above the doorway and told them that was
where the Eagle & Swastika symbol had been carved.
today, whenever I hear Wagners' Ride of the Valkyries
music, I mentally see myself flying in that Messerschmitt,
firing at the British and American fighter planes. Sometimes,
that vision ends with me being shot down, my plane burning,
and the ground rapidly spiraling up at me.
other thing that I cannot explain is that when I watched
a TV show recently about Hitler, I had to bite my tongue
to keep from blurting out that it was all wrong, that
he was a wonderful man and the greatest leader Germany
ever had. I had a sudden flash of memory where he pinned
a medal on my coat and shook my hand. I could actually
"see" his piercing blue eyes staring right
at me as he did so.
say that I am deeply troubled by these things is putting
it mildly!! I truly wish I didn't think of any of them,
but they seem to be memories that I cannot put aside.
I thought about going to a therapist at the VA hospital,
but I don't want to admit to anyone that I might have
been a Nazi once.
call me, Eric. That's the name that always comes into
my mind when I have those mental visions.
John's response in part:
are not morally responsible for actions we took in a
previous life. You have already had your life review
on the other side, and confessed before God what you
considered to be wrong acts committed in that life.
And you have been forgiven. So your conscience should
be clear in this life, and you need to tell yourself
that you should not feel ashamed or guilty. This current
life is a karmic opportunity to get that whole business
out of your system, with enough reminders of the previous
life to keep you true to your current mission, as you
perform positive deeds to balance those of that former